CLARIFICATION

Let me just give a shout out to my cousins - Meka, Nashia, and Keshia, who I have no beef with and who I have always loved like they were my sisters. I tell Keshia all the time that had it not been for my Auntie Jackie I would not have been a part of family reunions or summer vacations. She always made sure I was dressed like her girls and got a chance to see my dad every year. She was my second mom and her home was my home away from home. She would always say "Tiffany you don't have to ask me if you can come over here." I probably spent more time at their house than I did at my own. And I would show up every weekend even though I knew I had to get up and start cleaning early Saturday morning. I hate the fact that Frank and Devin are miles away from each other and don't have that bond like I had with Keshia. I hate that I don't get to see my little cousins and don't really know them (especially Nashia's girls).

So let me apologize to my cousins who I love like they my sisters because at no time did I want them to think I was referring to them. I love all my family - I'm just not gone let them few keep making me feel like I'm not good enough. But I am not apologizing for expressing my feelings because they honestly had me feeling like that - but maybe I should have made some clarifications. Its about to be 2009 and I am leaving the baggage in the 08 because I am looking forward to being very happy in the New Year. So I will be in Texas and Tallahassee at some time in the 09 so I can work on seeing my peeps more.

Love Yall Deuces

God's Test - Getting It Off My Chest

2008 was one of those years where I knew everything that happened was either a blessing from God or a test from God. But with all the tests and blessings you have the devil trying to build walls around you constantly. Honestly sometimes I wondered how I was going to make it through the year. Then on top of all that I saw my relationship with my dad deteriorate right before my very eyes, and really had no idea on how I could fix it. My dad is one of those people that has a problem communicating. I was hurt that he couldn't talk to me about whatever the problem was and I was hurt that when I called him for help he didn't answer me. I felt like he had turned his back on me and tried hard to understand where he was coming from. Still right now I want to ask him questions and I want to express to him how I feel, but I am waiting until the right time. My dad was in a motorcycle accident 2 days after Thanksgiving. All I could think about was the last conversation I had with him on Thanksgiving day and how rude he had been to me. When my cousin called and told me I was mad at him because that could have been the last conversation I had ever had with him and that would have been my last memory of him, and I wanted more from him than that. If Keshia had not been in Pensacola I am not sure how long it would have took for me to find out. Going there and seeing my dad in that hospital bed helpless and disoriented I felt lost because this was a man who I rarely saw take a nap because he was always working. Having these doctors talk to me about all his medical problems and a possible amputation of his leg was driving me to tears every single day. I didn't sleep at night for over 2 weeks I would lay in bed thinking about what if.... And if that stress wasn't enough to have my family create a lie and call everyone in the family and tell them I had scheduled for his leg to be amputated hurt even worse. They hit my breaking point. My dad was laying in the hospital and they got together and plotted against me - all I could think was the devil is unbelievable. Sitting in the car on my lunch break crying to my grandmother - like Dear why would they lie on me like that, why would they want to hurt me, what have I done to these people. God gave me my answer - these people are miserable and in return they need your company so either you join them or you pray for them. I decided to pray for them. I didn't ask to be born into this family and having their name didn't stand for anything. I'm your blood and you hate to acknowledge me, but when my sister came to the hospital you run over and hug her and she not even your blood. Then you act like you love my son to front for my dad because you know Frank is it for him. But you can't love Frank and don't have love for me. Frank is me and I am my daddy. You can't have one without the other. I learned that day that having family is worst than having enemies. And its almost better to have enemies because you expect the worst from them. Just like you cut off friends that mean you no good you have to cut off family. I will no longer feel like I am an outsider or that I am not good enough to belong. Dang their last name is Kidd not Trump it ain't that serious. I feel so much better now!!!! Man this blog thing releases a lot of negative energy. I love my family and I will continue to deal with the ones that know how to mind their own business and show love. And I praying that my dad fully recovers. I am also hoping that I can talk to him soon so I can try and fix us.

Election Day

I have been trying to vote for the past week - during the early voting... Well that didn't work out for me because the lines were 4 to 5 1/2 hours long and I was not trying to wait that long. So I decided to wait until Election Day, so that I could take Frank and he could witness the vote for the 1st African American President of the United States (YAY)! I drag myself out of bed at 5 am so that I can get in line by 5:30. Frank is knocked out and is not trying to participate - so I leave to stand in line. I was at least inside the building waiting (unilike early voting conditions). I had to wait until 7 am when the polls opened. It was worth the wait! I felt so proud to vote for Barack Obama. I even had Antonio our voting (this was his first time voting - slacker)! I was apart of history today and I appreciate it!

Shiloh Football

Let me just give you the breakdown of the past couple of games. Since I am three weeks behind, I will just add all the pictures from the previous weeks. October 18th - Shiloh v. Lawrenceville since both teams had lost 1 game a piece they were fighting for the division championship. Shiloh won the game and the division (Go SHILOH)!!! They were ranked 5th in the playoff bracket and the first playoff game was on their home field. October 25th - they played Mill Creek and it was an exciting game! The score was 22-6. And Shiloh moved on the 2nd round of the playoffs. November 1st - Shiloh v. Grayson and this was a nail biter! This Grayson team had two running backs and they were the truth. They ran the Wing-T offense, which is a hard offense to control. Once the backs hit the outside it is very hard to shut them down. And Grayson's #5 was killing them on the run. He scored two touchdowns in the first quarter - and we were down 12-0. Our boys never gave up because they came back and scored a touchdown, so at half-time the score was 12-6 (Grayson up). After half-time our boys came out ready to play... we immediately scored on our first drive and the score was now 14-12 (Shiloh up). But that little Grayson #5 would not stop and he scored right after us, the score is 14-18 (Grayson). So now we have 3 minutes left in the 4th quarter and we fake the run and pass the ball to Ty (our little Deion Sanders) and he catches and scores (the crowd goes wild - AHHHHHHHHHHHHH)! and Jaylen comes in with the field goal....he kicks and it's good!!!! The score is now 22-18 and we have a 1 minute and 45 seconds left to play. So the objective is too hold #5 and #1 so they cannot score again. Grayson hands the ball to #5 and he is almost gone but is wrapped up. Then they hand the ball to #1 and he is hit so hard that he comes out the game with a concussion (go Frank what a hit), so now we only have to worry about #5 and they are all over him. So the game is a wrap - Shiloh wins 22-18. Round three is going down this weekend against Buford... Its going down..

Fifth Grade Program

October 17, 2008 - Centerville Elementary recognized the students with good grades and 5th grade representatives. Frank was appointed to class representative for Ms. Clarke's class. This kid is so popular it is funny! I walk in and he looking all embarrased (but he invited me to come)! Then he gives me the axe signal on my camera. So now I am there and I can't even take pictures (WTF).... But I took pictures anyway (lol)!!!! Basically Frank was recognized for Honor Roll (he had 6 A's and 1 B). His third "B" - in his entire school career. He got put on punishment not for getting a "B" but for not turning in his writing assignment on time, which caused him to get this "B." He also got an award for Perfect Attendance. I was very proud of Frank standing up there in his football jersey like everyone looking at me.

Shiloh v. Dacula

Shiloh was handed their first loss on Saturday. I know why Dacula is undefeated for the last 3 years. These kids have not lost a game since 2004, and they are serious! They are like watching little professionals. They are a very disciplined team. At half time the score was 0-0 and it looked like it was going to be a defensive game. Dacula coaches had us figured out by the 3rd quarter. They could see that our coaches were only substituting 2 maybe 3 kids every now and then. Those of us with newbies knew that our kids would not get to play much. Our coaches play daddy ball and they need to know that daddy ball don't win championships. Dacula played their entire team - the entire game. They were running the 11 man substitution and it wore our boys out. They didn't know what they heck was going on. But our boys didn't lose the game the coaches dropped the ball. Dacula kept running the same formations, but our coaches never caught on to that! Anyway Dacula won 21-0 and they earned every bit of that win! They had this #24 who played running back on offense and this kid would drop his shoulder and run over you! He laid out three of our guys and was still on his feet! This kid had been coached and trained properly. Then when he was on defense he would hit them kids so hard they would come off limping (lol)! He hit our little running back so hard he went flying in the air and the coach had to catch him (lol). I am so driving my kid to this park next year (lol)! I want Frank to be coached properly. I want him to learn how to do things correctly so he won't get injured doing it the wrong way! Frank has the Randy Moss body - tall (5'2") and slim (88 lbs) - and this kid eats like crazy! He just not gone be thick - point blank! He need to play for a team that can see he needs to be a wide receiver, corner back, or a defensive end - not playing on the darn line. Offensive linemen are usually 350+ lbs and that will never be Frank. So Dacula we coming there next year!!!

Shiloh v. South Gwinnett

Frank plays football for the Shiloh Generals (this is his first year)!!! Last Saturday Shiloh beat South Gwinnett (one of their main rivals) 32-0. The Generals are still undefeated!!! Frank forced two fumbles and recovered them both. He had three tackles on special teams. And spent the rest of the game blocking on the Offensive Line. Yes they have that skinny kid playing on the line. He enjoys Special Team - they call him the "Head Hunter" because he is always looking to tackle a kid! This game put them automatically in the playoffs (Let's Go Shiloh - Let's Go)! We have two games left in the regular season and both upcoming teams are undefeated too. We have Dacula this Saturday and they haven't lost a game since they were 7 years old (so its been 3 years)! I will keep you updated as its about to go down!